From The Inside Out

Harper's first birthday is tomorrow. Lately, I've been trying to remember what I was thinking and feeling this time last year. One memory that keeps coming to mind is how much I loved this song. 

Right around the time that I found out that I was pregnant, we started singing it at my church. It really spoke to me - and when I say really spoke to me, I mean it regularly reduced me to tears and snot streaming down my face. I would normally chalk that kind of thing up to pregnancy hormones, but even now, I can hardly make it through the song without getting a little misty. There is a line that says "My heart and my soul, Lord I give you control. Consume me from the inside out." That line hit me like a ton of bricks. I felt like God was speaking to me directly through that line and telling me He was going to use the little baby in my belly to teach me about Him - that He was going to consume my heart from the inside out. And man, did He ever. God has used and is still using Harper to teach me more about His love and character than I ever could have imagined. God is good.